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Thursday, February 07, 2008

this post is completely random... it's making me not appreciate myself again..
it's making me hate one of God's creations..

i went to read other people's blog... which i realised is not a thing to do on cny.
cos i got all teary.. for no reason.

maybe cos firstly, i feel very sad when my friends are leaving me..
secondly, i'm just having a lousy day.

and suddenly, i have a feeling from reading blogs of others like i dun belong anywhere..
the people who feel so close..
but not a single thing about me?

k fine. it's simply self obsession.

the people in grtgmc (fsggmc) dun talk about me anymore cos i'm no longer in their branch.
i'm an outsider already..
the friends that i have in fsppc dun talk about me cos i'm not a part of them..

so... where do i belong?

it's really heart breaking when u read their blogs talking abt everybody in the branch.. den.. hey? no you? tot u were close to them? oh ya... you don't belong in the same branch as them.. right.... oh. that's fine..

den when u read abt them talking abt ppl leaving the branch, you remember that last time you were going to leave the company also, den just randomly see if they talk about you when you were gonna leave the branch.. you realise that ... um.. not a word.. ok..

argh... i cun stand this... my tears are rolling down again... i hate myself................... just let me hate myself for the remaining hours of tonight.. i promise i will be better tml morning.... i need somebody to talk to.... =''( i'm gonna try sleep.. this is horrible.. it's cny and i'm already crying for no reason and feeling sorry for myself. geez..

the thoughts flowed.. {10:39 PM}
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