Saturday, April 28, 2007

i'm so confused. so many things have been happening the last 2 days. i'm getting so tired and i duno what to do. my heart is leading me in a million directions. which way do i go?

thursday

i went to work at 11 in the morning cos i was too tired. ended work at 6. walked to mrt with a colleague of mine and oso go meet my kor to go to clarke quay for our class gathering. when he reached, he sms-ed me.... i was abit shocked cos i didn't know he would reach so soon.. but anyway, when i was walking to lavender mrt, i saw him... and so did my colleague. and my colleague decided to walk faster den his normal speed... and my kor was walking a little slow... so i didn't know what to do. since my colleague was going off soon, i caught up with him, and chatted a little more, he walked off... and i waited for my kor to catch up. den, my kor said... y i nvr intro my colleague to him. haha. tell me how to? when both of them are like the rabbit and the tortoise. (just an example)

further into the night, my supposedly alot of battery phone decided to weaken and auto shut off... so i sian diao lor... cannot contact home. so first i decided to call home to let my parents know i wun be home so early. last time they said let them know ma... but i reached home like 6.30 am on friday morning lor... haiz... made them worry. so i was oso abit sad that i made them so nervous.

and so.... friday morning...

the leftovers of the class gathering decided that we will go kbox. after multiple walks up and down deciding whether to go parklane or paradiz centre... we went to paradiz to sing. was enjoyable, but i was already like 3/4 dead cos i'm out for close to 24 hours le. haha... anyway, since it was ladies night, the girls had free drinks and the guys needed to pay cover charge. since there was 4 females and 3 males, we just split the overall bill lor... and den 2 more friends went back... so 2 guys (benson and my kor) along w 3 ladies (angela, lyn and me) walked up and down trying to find a 24hour outlet to slack at till 6am so that cab would be cheaper. but all except 7-11 was close. so we sat at a bus stop along orchard road and my dear sweet kor ran over to 7-11 opposite to buy food and drinks for us cos max of us were hungry... but i didn't take my share cos i didn't feel well...

whilst we were sitting at the bus stop looking like youngsters with no homes to go back to... more than 12 cabs stopped over to ask if we wanted to board. lol! and when finally at 6am, when we wanted to get a cab, none came. hahaha... although i hated making my mum worry like she did yesterday morning, the whole gathering was really nice. and there were pictures taken. just waiting for my friend to send it over to me. she sent 3 over last night. was really pleased with the pics. o^_^o

i'm confused over certain feelings i cannot blog abou here... haiz... i'll just continue to wait.

the thoughts flowed.. {3:08 PM}
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Wednesday, April 25, 2007

i wana come in to blog, but i duno wat to blog about. there's so much that's been happening, but yet it feels like there's nothing happening. i'm supposed to be going to a class gathering tml with my secondary school class... but i dun really feel like going... yet, there's a slight bit of me that wants to go. so... how?

just like more than 1/2 of me already knows clearly who i want to be with now. this moment. currently. but, there's the bits and pieces of me who still thinks of somebody else. slight regrets? no. i don't do stuff that i regret. just pieces of memories that i still cannot let go of.

work. is getting terrible. tell me the point of having 10 seats at the counter front, 3 at the back, but 9 out of 10 of the front is occupied by full timers and 1 is a simply small squeezy place that somehow already belongs to a full timer that is converting to a part time. and the back 3 seats, 2 of them is occupied, and 1 will be occupied at 4 when the owner comes. the point is.. where do the part timers sit? and there's not only 1. there's like 7 part timers or more lor.... -.-' dun really find a point in staying anymore.

my only purpose in staying, if i dun get into SIM, get him to help me request to work in coach department... haiz. everyday is so boring, i dun even know my purpose of working...

continues to pray for lifelong mate. hahaz.


喜欢却不能说出口的痛苦... 我是曾经那么的深爱过你...

the thoughts flowed.. {11:55 PM}
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Tuesday, April 10, 2007

tell me the reason why everything is happening the way it is. it makes my life feel so unworthy of its original value. with every word that people are saying, the impact is harder and harder. why do i have the feeling that i am being deprived of my rightful stuff? i really want to state the example... but i think it's not appropriate to write it here. ppl, u who are reading, if u know, den i think u might be able to understand my worries. like... it's really unfair. i've been here for close to 6 months. which piece of me does not deserve learning that piece of knowledge? after all that i've contributed here? which part of my character does not deserve handling that responsibility? am i not trustworthy?

why is the many things happening make me feel that somehow, i'm not motivated to stay anymore. many things are done, but it doesn't feel like it is done for the benefit of the welfare of the workers... there's really alot that spoilt my mood today... but there was also one thing that made me happy.... one little thing. that had been solved. her little letter made me smile. =) sorry i couldn't write more...

the thoughts flowed.. {6:47 PM}
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Friday, April 06, 2007

i am sooooooo pissed off at the new virus that comes in a form of a photo album. many people have sent the same dumb virus over and over again in the msn, i have rejected, declined, blah blah many times, but the virus seems to be able to 'take over' the computer that i am using at work and use my status to send itself to other ppl on my contact list... hello?? i didn't accept anything.. stop shouting at me during work to ask me to clear the dumb virus!! if it was so easy to clear, u think i would get it in the first place? and the worse part is that it will automatically get into conversations with everybody, cause the computer to suddenly hang/lag. and a retarded fella will start screaming saying that i have virus... ask me to quickly shut off the msn.

u think i dun wan meh? my computer laggy, wat can u do? u so 'li hai' u come settle this stupid problem la! the computer itself already so laggy, ask u all to reformat or do something to it, nobody wan. den when got this kinda stupid thing happen, all ask me to faster. no matter how fast my fingers are, the computer lag means lag wat.... know the meaning of 'lag' or not? means the computer is slow... NOT ME! for goodness sake.

ever since everybody is changing their nicks to inform everybody ELSE that there's a virus, u think i'll still be so dumb to accept photo albums? of course not la! chey. so....... therefore, i conclude that the virus is self leechy, and it is not my fault that it likes to choose that dumb laggy computer for any reason. stop insisting that i am an idiot to send virus to me and want me to apologise. i appreciate the help when u provide me with the information that my computer still has the virus existing.. but stop giving me the demanding tone. u think i'm not pissed off with the virus too? it makes my life more difficult that i have to open trend micro to try to delete the virus WHILST working. hence making the computer even slower. so the people at work, stop shouting at me and stop being so horrible. =(

the thoughts flowed.. {8:30 PM}
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